you don't have to love me

You do not have to love me just because you are all the women I have ever wanted. I was born to follow you every night while I am still the many men who love you. I meet you at a table I take your fist between my hands in a solemn taxi. I wake up alone my hand on your absence in Hotel Discipline. I wrote all these songs for you I burned red and black candles shaped like a man and a woman I married the smoke of two pyramids of sandalwood I prayed for you I prayed that you would love me and that you would not love me.